leaving for india today. Wd go around 12 noon. U need to c heck in about 2 hours in advance. the security conditions are tough and one needs 2 reach the airport 2 hours in advance. Well i am hoping 2 quickly work thru the jet lag. I have 2 catch up with work on 27th and on 28th morn i would be off to a lab for teachers of prakriya's in house edc program. i think seetha has some great ideas and the best part is they actualize. I wish i can realize what i am passionate about and get myself to achieve it. i do hope 2 study a lil bit in the area of organizational psychology. But courses in the US are so expensive and u need 2 be able to get yr GMat etc done so seems like a longish process... hmm so that seems a big road block by itself
The experience of staying at Pitt was great. annika is a very observant child. Talks a lot in her own baby language, which is fun 2 watch. The house is beautiful and C is a great cook :)
I am feeling very tired just now.. signing off
see you back in India

today i leave for Pittsburg, thats where my brother in law (Rajeev's brother stays). He and his wife Christianna are both doctors. They had a lil daughter about 6 months ago and i am lucky to see her in the next two days. I am looking forward to spending time with all of them. Havent really got a chance to know them in person, and would make the most of this opportunity. I went shopping yesterday with some colleagues of mine. I think one aspect of US that is distinct is size.. of all things.. portions, shops, malls.. but it is all very well organized and its been a good exposure. I must say that desi';s keep converting everything in their mind and checking out on value for money. The way i have looked at shopping is do i get something like this in India, if not i will buy in. I went beserk and bought a pair of really expensive jeans.. my heart went on a guilt trip for just a moment and then i said what the heck. I picked up some gifts for my nephew Kapil. Hope to pick up some more stuff in Pitts. Well its been a rushed morning for me.. and was worken up at 6 with a call from a colleague. so am a lil sleepy now. Thats it from me
Love to all

hmm.. so havent been writing much off late.. its been a different experience for me. Once thing i realize about myself is this ability to switch off if i don't feel important.. some how this issue i havent been able to work with at all. I also am the worst critique of myself. That combination is not so good. But the positive is i am able to express myself so well to Rajeev, its easier to share positive things with a spouse but tougher to share deeper negative feelings.....so thats a good indicator of a relationship. I am also looking forward to spending some time alone. I was invited to some dinner plan happening not sure if i want to join any one. I think a lot of things to introspect about. I am more convinced that overseas education some how helps build confidence.. i think the approach makes one very articulate... so maybe some year down the line, i wont mind it
not feeling so good today

In the US. It was such a looooooooooong trip... now i understand the term "travelling across the 7 seas" in the real sense. What i realise is people are mostly friendly and dying to connect with one another. So thats a new thing for me.. speaking to stranger.. i realize that my body language is not so friendly as most people here. I think its all the lets be careful ! and conservative thingy that we have as part of our socialization and growing up. I see a lot more confident people around here, even kids.. they are so articulate even in not knowing it all :)

I miss Rajeev a lot and realize that its frustrating that i cant connect with him all the time.......i havent managed to get a calling card so that adds to the handicap. Hope to do that soon. Well so far i been out there as yet, but one thing hithat i notice is there are not many people that u see on the roads, but u see a lot of snow covered roads. Its beautiful but lonely..... i know what that means now. I think here there is so much abundance of resource and in that sense the place is very blessed as compared to countries like ours.. but i think we need to be focussed with stuff like hygiene to get going to take us to the next orbit....

so thats what is up with me.. just now sleepy

Begining of the week.. Initially lots to do. for the next 2 days, i need to come in late. I have a call tomm and day after i have to pick up my in laws (they r coming back after a long trip to the US). My mum feel a lil un well over the weekend. The doctors predicted it to be vertigo and have prescribed medication. In any case i am planning to take her for a complete check up , which is another reason for delay in coming tomm. In fact tomm i am meeting some old friends of mine over lunch. so lots to manage. I also have to shop a lil bit for my trip..so i hope to get going sooooooon
C ya tomm

Well it has been an event ful week for me. But i loved the work pressure it involved. I guess i like to work against many odds and deadlines and right now thats what's been in store for me. The opportunities going forward i am not sure off, but lots to learn about people & dynamics. I guess people in group settings behave very differently from individuals. I am not sure what triggers them off to a different set of behaviours (almost:)
hmm i am looking forward to a lovely weekend. Wd spend some time on my self and have loads to get done
Take care

Interim role for a while. Its been ok so far. Lots of things to be done. But some how a lot of importance. Not sure if people care about you when you hold some imp role ? Weekend was ok Mostly at home with a bad cold. Watched LOC. Being a fauji a lot of goose pimples and feeling of connect. But a lil saddened by the number of people who lost their life.

Well not much that comes to my mind now. also see that the blogs r not getting updated so ooooooo

Happy New Year - 2004.

Typically the end of the year you say 'well the year has gone past sooooo fast' but is that really true ?.

For me, in this year there were some moments that buzzed by and some moments that were slow and adamantly stayed. .. Yet on retrospect, it doesn't seem like a bad deal. I think the biggest high was marriage and am still dizzy about it. fun so far.. and as they say in Hindi.. 'aage aage dekho hota hai kya'

The new year get together was great.. informal coming together of people that we are fond off, live music and a lot of laughter. There were talks of forgotten resolutions and dreams of newer ones.

Well the count down for the new year has begun for all with a lot of hopes & dream. For me the endeavor would be to seek what truely brings me alive as a person and as a professional.

In this year, i have been awakened to thought of the person is known by the company he/ she keeps and in that way i am blessed. Felt surrounded and supported by a many people who really care about me and love me.

Transition from boss on.. the coming week would be tough for me.
There is another farewell party on Sunday.. well i am not sure if i enjoy official parties on weekends.. (crib crib)

C ya all of you !!

May all of you seek & find what you really want !!!!