so i am taking over from the boss.. the way i see it is.. take over to hand over. Its just too much information and in a way a lot of anxiety in my mind. Some how failing in a new responsibility is scary. We always talk about learning from our failures, but dont want to have that lesson as much as possible. Isnt it such a paradox.

I am off tomm, wd be at home. Tonite there is an informal get to gether planned. Mostly friends, just chill , drink and make merry. Maybe we will play some music and dance. Nothing too loud. Dont really know how the neighbours would react. Well whatever will be will be. Tomm shall get up at leisure and not do much. Maybe a nice relaxed lunch.. lets see

Well wish u all a happy new year, lots of love

hmmm.. i was feeling a lil low yesterday. As soon as you say this to any one they say dont feel. Well i dont think its really in my hands to feel or not feel. I think i just have to look at whatever is happening in my mind and wait for it to settle down in some way (feel normal). I have lots of work to do but havent started as yet. My boss has resigned and would be ending his tenure this weekend, have to take over (knowledge transfer from him). I also have to start acting in his place for a while till we find some one else to do the job. Lots of people tell me i am making a mistake by not pushing for that role, but i dont think my passion lies there. Where is the question i still am not clear about. Today is a farewell party in aide of his leaving. Some of these get very anti social where no one knows what to say and all feel awkward.

I read an article abt the benefits of walking, its easy for the ppl who write to say that, but to get up in the morning and do it is another matter completely. I would be on leave on 1st... time off with rajeev. Mum is leaving for cochin tomm.. so dropping her is what i need 2 do

ta ta for now

Just back from a holiday. 5 days in all.. all of them essentially involved lazing around, nothingness and a complete sense of purposelessness. I think these stints help a lot and also have ways of creating scatter.

The 'after holiday blues' is what i am with just now. It seems so difficult to get streamlined with a sense of purpose. Rajeev & I held hands and spent time talking and in silence. I get to realize that for couples to communicate , words are not the only medium.. sometimes saying nothing can also be saying so much... reminds me of the song, u say it all when u say nothing at all..

this week is wierd, i am taking leave on 1st for new years.. well it wd be strange to change gears so many times during a week. The habit of sleeping in the afternoon does create havoc to work life

The year is going to end and its time to take stock of resolutions, well i am not sure if i want to ...

My mind is filled with so much, yet not many thoughts that are clear

Well it was an eventful weekend. I went to a place off kanakpura road on a dirty, dusty track which lead to nothing. This was for exploring a venue for a program i am coordinating in May. I think travelling was not so tiring as much as the disappointment of not finding what we were looking for. It was a real test of the car's tyres and my driving skills. At the end it turned out to be big zero.
Later Rajeev and i spent some nice time on romantic things.. he made me read an article to justify how i shdnt crib abt him :). Well the article was nice but..??????
Today i am spending most of my time coordinating a visit that is scheduled for me soon. I realize that i find it difficult to tell people what exactly i want especially in organizations and institutional spaces.
I chatted with an old friend of mine today, she pings me some times when she has doubts in the field of HR. She said Rajeev looked cute. I agree 100%
On saturday , all of us went to watch a play 'dear Liar' it was brilliantly performed and left an impact. worth the while
I wish i could do more such things. I realize that i have a huge need for creativity in my life. My latest passion is making beaded necklace. some of them turn out well
Well almost time to go

I realize that i am still a novice when it comes to creating blogs. This is not to say that i am an expert on most things in life :) To solve this particupar problem i pinged a friend, who promptly helped me out. He was gentle and step by step in his approach.

Off late i have a few days on which i am very inspired (high) with myself and am very energized thinking of new crazy ideas and on others I feel very drained out.

I think for me, meeting the right kind of people some times helps.

Yday i had a very interesting discussion with a colleague on where my work should focus and all that talking helped me clear my mind. Today i have been talking to a group on using the something called 'open space technology'. This method gives a person the choice to make learning decisions. In the course of my discussions i realized that how little we like 'freedom'. Most of the times we feel wisdom lies outside of us are constantly seeking it if we dont really believe it.

My hubby has started to learn violin. I think the learning process adds a bit of naiveness to look at things afresh. He looked so cute practicing his violin and in tune i must add.

Today has been a good day. I am inspired by myself. hmm thats abt it for now!!